Thursday, 5 November 2015

#NoFearGoSmear

#NoFearGoSmear

Easy right? Just go?

Or maybe not....

The current guidelines in England are that every women is invited to have a smear test at 25.

I was no different.

The letter landed on my doorstep shortly after my 25th Birthday.

And what did I do? 

Book the appointment?

Nope. Of course not. 


It ended up in a pile of junk mail and later in the bin.

Over the past 5 years I have had MANY reminders through the post.

The same thing happened to each and every one.

Why?

Was I scared?

I don't feel like I was.

I've had anyone and everyone *down there* during my 3 pregnancies.

And having 3 children naturally, I certainly wasn't bothered about any pain it might cause.

Dignity literally disappears when you have children. So I have non of that left.

Was it laziness?

I don't feel like it was that either. After all, it doesn't take much to pick up the phone and book. And I've been to the doctors enough times over the past 5 years.

I honestly couldn't give you one reason WHY I didn't book that appointment when prompted to do so. 

I just didn't.

So why now at 30 years old?

I don't know that either.

Over the years I've read many stories about women who've had cervical cancer, most notably the Jade Goody story in the media.

Such a tragic story, yet it STILL didn't prompt me to go.

Whilst the rest of the world were calling to lower the smear test age, I was getting older and older and ignoring it.

I have PCOS which gives me a higher risk of cancer. 

That STILL didn't prompt me to go.

I have three beautiful children who I want to be around for, for as long as I possibly can.

But that STILL didn't prompt me to go.

.....

Then one day last week, I saw a friend share a story on facebook of a girl going through cervical cancer. She had just come out of surgery. The cancer was picked up early via her routine smear test and as such she stood a very good chance of beating it.

I didn't even read the full story before picking up the phone and calling my GPs.

What was so different about this story over all the others I had read?

I think it is because this was a positive story. 

The media tend to write about the tragic stories. The ones like Jade, where they lose their battle with the cancer.

Maybe I was scared of that? The dying. Leaving my 3 children.

Maybe, if I was going to die anyway, I'd rather not know?

But this story was one where the smear test had picked it up and she was going to overcome it. She was beating cancer.

So I thought, right, IF it turns out I do have something bad picked up, I WANT to know, I WANT to deal with this. I WANT to live.

.......

So, I went along today to the appointment I made last week.

And guess what?

It didn't hurt!
It wasn't undignified!
and it lasted a matter of minutes!

Job done.

I put those 3 easy minutes off for the last 5 years for nothing!

What a fool.

So now I await the results.

Which stand a very good chance of being all clear.

But if they are not. At least I will know. I can deal with it.



If you, like me, have been putting yours off, for reasons you don't even know or can't explain, PLEASE, just pick up the phone and call now.

You won't regret having a smear but you may regret not.

4 comments:

  1. So glad you did it. Three pregnancies have sent my smear test schedule out the window... I need to book one too. Thank you #twinklytuesday

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  2. So glad you did it. I must admit I hate them but still go. I think we have a duty to our families to get one when we are called up!

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  3. So glad you did it. I've been having smears since day one and after my pregnancy I had to have some dodgy cells removed. I wouldn't have known about them unless I'd been for the smear and the next follow up came back clear. Well done for going and for writing this post. It is so important! Thanks for linking up with #TwinklyTuesday

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  4. Right. I'm booking it! I'm convinced! X

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